The closer I get the surgery, the more frequently I am asked if I'm nervous about it. It makes sense that I would be: it's a major surgery to undergo and the recovery time is substantial. There is a reason why I am off of work until just after Labour Day.

At the same time, I'm not really nervous. At least not yet. I'm still just excited about it and anxious to be done! I expect to be nervous when we get to the clinic and I expect to be quite nervous as I am being put under.

But...

...that might be a bit of a lie.

Right now, I am nervous.

Just not about the surgery.

Right now, I am in full Lisa Simpson mode. I want to be the best patient that I can be and follow my instructions to the letter (or better).

I am very concerned and anxious about complying properly with my required preparations: the hair removal, the disinfecting showers, the internal house cleaning, all of it.

In my mind right now, if I don't manage to fulfill it to the letter (what if there's a single hair that's above 1mm?, what if I miss a spot with the soap?) that there will be a record scratch, disappointed angry faces, and I'm just sent home to be put back on the list.

I don't think that's what happens.

Does it?

June 11, 2026